No rave.
I absolutely hate being caught unaware. Do you know what I mean? For instance, when informed that dinner starts at 7 but everyone meets up at 10, not usually an issue, but you were ready wayyy early. Or when after a day spent laboriously cleaning everyone and their mom just shows up, hungry. Or when, (this is most problematic for me!) I have specific plans according to someone else's detail, and I rearrange my life to accommodate another's schedule only to find there was no actual plan and I still cannot participate as I expected! That happens often. I don't understand why. I dredge out every detail. I believe I am communicating properly as well as being receptive and open to all plans involved, and yet, the same thing always happens.
I started out ranting about another, but now it has turned to my lover. In particular, with him this always happens. When we plan for each other and ourselves, the day starts out wonderful. We flutter here, we mingle there, and at some point one of us gets upset because things aren't going according to plan. I hate to say it, though I may not start out being upset, I easily become agitated when I know my lover is. And even when we've reasoned through and talked it out and he once again is in a wonderful mood, I cannot shake the feeling. So, we're out, we should be having fun, he is, but I'm fockking miserable! It has happened enough that I know it's not just some one time lapse. It is an unmistakable pattern.
These errs would seem to be a series of mis-communications and yet...
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